I worked early today. This morning I attended the English meeting on Zoom as usual. Today's topic was returning to our workplaces after a long vacation. Someone shared a trial of writing a so-called "gratitude" journal with us, which means writing what we feel thankful for in that journal. I remember that once another person I had met on the 11th of this month also recommended me as it would cure my mind certainly. Certainly, writing can work as a medicine or a painkiller.
Within my memoir blog, I want to write my fragmental memories in order of what I remember randomly. However, I am now afraid of its huge darkness/heaviness (certainly, I want to write the exact moment I decided to run away from my workplace, and also give up everything by taking plenty of pills). But don't worry readers! Because (as you know) my life also has its happy, treasured moments such as how I met my job coach, how I started learning English at 40 again, and so on.
After today's work, I returned to my group home. Then, I noticed my mother's message on LINE which told me today we could enjoy a beautiful moon scenery according to the traditional Japanese calendar. From my room in the apartment, even though it seemed still cloudy, the moon was very fascinating so I took a pic of that and shared it with her, and also my friends on Discord and MeWe.
Although I wanted to write another fragmental article of my memoir, definitely because I had already been exhausted from this daytime's work, no motivation came from anywhere (my mental fuel had already run out completely!). So I just changed my mind to enjoy gazing at my timeline on Twitter, and then a Japanese great actor Hiroyuki Sanada marvelous achievement attracted me. I should learn about this news.
Until the time I turned the light off because of a rule of my group home, I spent my free time reading Levy Hideo's essays [リービ英雄『日本語の勝利／アイデンティティーズ』]. Once, I thought everything had ended completely when I had committed that silly action, however at least this life wouldn't turn its face off to me. What's life? Oh, time changes, and maybe I am also changing...
