I worked late today. This morning, I've read Karen Cheung's great memoir "The Impossible City" with Prune Deer's great songs. This author certainly has diligent attitude to write about Hong Kong, and also about her life itself. That has made me really impressed, and think about my own life again. She even confesses her own mental illness with bravery... it had once actually moved her crazy. I never hesitate to call this book as a masterpiece!
Can I imagine the life without any "home country"? Or, simply, without any place to be... Once, I had hated this kind of adoration as a silly idea. I had even adored a kind of exile or diaspora life - staying as an outsider within/among this place. I can't remember surely why I adored such a foolish adoration, but probably because I had to face the fact that I was too "alien" at any communities.
Therefore, simply I had heavily hated this country once. In Japanese, we say such a hateful/aggressive attitude as "anti-Japan(反日)." Yes, I should have gone out of this place. But anyway, now I can accept this place as my homeland. After reading this book, I have thought if I can write my own "The Impossible city", or any novel by me as a trial.
Next Sunday, I'm going to enjoy the online meeting about autism. There, I want to talk about this - this memoir, and also the emotion toward this country as a part of my presentation. Although I thought about telling about how to learn English to the other members, I also want to add it with the things I have written above ("anti-Japan" emotion, etc.)
From 3 pm, I saw my job coach at my workplace. We had a meeting about my job - what troubles I have been having, and how to solve them. She always teaches me how important to distinguish the true facts and the impressions/biases within me, although that is really difficult for me. Therefore, she has been teaching me great lesson.
At the break time during my work, I have started "cooking" the idea of my new novel. But I might not be able to show it to you (if you want, I will send you as an e-mail... Now I just have started writing, so wait please!).
