BGM: b-flower - North Marine Drive
This morning, during my work, I thought this - Why? Why had I started writing this journal? As you can see, every morning I wake up so early to write the journal about the previous day. And, every afternoon time I write various things using in English on my memo pad which will become the next day's journal. For about 2 years I have done this habit.
Once, when I was a teenager, my dream/ambition had been to become a professional author like Haruki Murakami. As I have written in this journal many times, I had even dreamed I could become a bestseller author and also a great translator. After breaking up all of my dreams completely, my drunken days had started. But when I was 40, I decided from the bottom of my mind that I shouldn't keep on drinking anymore, therefore started quitting. Yes, since that decision, 9 years have passed...
I need to talk about my journal... like that, once I had seriously dreamed to become a fiction writer. However, after having tried to write my novels' drafts, I had found that I am never such a amazingly talented person. My autism, scattered interests in my head, always disturbs my strict/steady thinking to achieve one strong, straight storytelling. So, I have had to give up becoming a novelist, instead I finally started writing my sudden/short ideas every morning time.
Now I wonder - how this journal writing looks like to you? Within Japan, I can see many journals (in public and in private) here and there. Although some people says that this kind of writings aren't as great as any big fictions. Indeed, I also respect great fictions which blow my mind so easily, and also completely (For example, as I have mentioned, Haruki's mega novels.)
But, now I want to say that journaling every day without any huge concept/ambition also can lead us to the great state. Remembering my reading history, I can see that many people have written great journals (I've read Eric Hoffer's, and also Andy Warhol's achievements.) Journaling can become a tiny collection of treasure for me, personally... I believe so.
