BGM: 松任谷由実 - ANNIVERSARY
It was a day off today. This morning, I went to AEON as usual. Although I have no plan to do, even to buy anything, I go to there to think something or just do relaxing. At there, I saw my father. We talked about my recent life. I told him that now I am living well. He also uses Facebook (even though he doesn't post anything), and reads my posts. I hope that my activity of writing can work as a kind of "return gift" to him as grateful thanksgiving.
Once, I hated him because he had not shown any attitude of understanding me. In other words, we had been really distant/separated between our territories. When I had lived with my parents, I just had been a heavy drinker and imagined that I would die as soon as possible, and also believed that I had not been wished to be born by anyone (Oh my!). But, since my 40 I started quitting that habit of drinking alcohol, and kept on gazing the future straightly, and the mission I should do toward the future state where I am now standing on. Yes, now I can say that "thank you so much" to my parents.
After that meeting, I had lunch and went to the book café 本の蔵 to buy some used books. And, at there I bought two books by Nobuhiko Kobayashi (小林信彦), and stayed for a while to write my English memo. I went back to my group home, and took a nap (an hour). After that, I read one of those books I had borrowed, which is Jonathan Cott's "Susan Sontag: The Complete Rolling Stone Interview".
That book of interview with Susan Sontag has been giving me various ideas, and letting me think a lot. Once I decided not to read her books because I had thought that she could have "too cool and critical" brain which could analyze anything. But now, I find that a certain "hot", "passionate" attitude in her words. She enjoyed a lot of resources in this world. Books, movies, music - but her attitude must not be nerdy/maniac. She actually needed these things to be saved (although I see this understanding could be too rude).
And now, I feel that her works are still alive in this world. I need to read them more.
