Although you have probably already noticed this, I am an autistic person and have a unique character which leads me to keep questing for a minimal genre of literature and music so fanatically. For example, since I met in my school days for the first time, I still love (and also, won't hide this respectful emotion) Haruki Murakami. Also, I still love Blur's early works such as "Modern Life is Rubbish" and "Parklife", even though there must be greater works by other artists. I can't tell if this can be because of my character or from so-called autism. Anyway, you can call me "otaku" from/by this fact.
Once, like a honey bee, I kept collecting various pieces of minor/minimal pieces of knowledge about literature and music. I even tried to discuss with others about these genres. However, in that era, I was too young and ignorant to enjoy calm, creative discussions. Simply, I misunderstood the value of true creativity, of the provoking function of discussions by just making silly arguments. The Japanese language has a unique expression as "taking mount", which means to look over and even defeat someone with their fertile, rich knowledge (I googled and found it can be expressed by natural English as "one-up"). Then, once I had literally been haunted by such a ridiculous idea very seriously, too fanatically.
Why did I want to "one-up" any others fanatically? Although I can't tell how I had thought within my mind at that period certainly, I imagine that in that period I wanted to be adored, get respected by others because of my very "otaku" knowledge (I can't tell whether this can be a universal theory. I just tell my own, personal truth). But, as you can tell very easily, I couldn't get respected as I imagined because my attitude was very bold and brutal... What a shame.
Now, On Twitter, I can find various users (or, in other words, very fanatic "fighters" ) who wish to "one-up" someone with their very "marvelous" correctness. Literally, I respect them. However, my attitude seems to be different from theirs... I want to follow my hunch, my instinct suggests to me unconsciously. It's "beyond" my poor vocabulary, so I am not good at doing any discussions with a steady, calm mind/attitude.
