跳舞猫日録

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2022/12/10 English

BGM: Bob Dylan "World Gone Wrong"

I met a leader of the group home. I gave him the money for various payments. He and his staff helped me a lot this year as usual (really thankful for that). I passed the money and got shocked because it was really tiny. Yes, I'm poor. How can the next year be? After that, I learned that the next book of Shinji Aoyama's "Turtle in Takaraga Ike never sinks" so I sent a LINE message to the leader if I can buy it. We decided that I send LINE messages if I find the book I want. He said that we can think about it after I will get the extra money as a "bonus". But "bonus" will be given to me?

I read Asa Itoh and Takao Murase's "Dementia and Altruism". This is based on the letters these two authors sent to each other, and it becomes an interesting one that describes the real estate of this highly aged society. They try to think about the reality of aged people who need help by using the word "Dementia" as a trigger, and also describe how this world is. Aged people with blurred minds are not impossible completely to understand, but they must have their egos and personalities to live in this world (yes, this is really a clear fact but I must admit that I often forget it). So they try to write and seek about how to live with these aged people together peacefully.

I am an autistic person so often think that it is impossible to understand myself. Like Arthur Rimbaud, do we think about ourselves as "I am the other"? Touching that kind of "otherness" of ourselves is as same as touching the "enigma" of this world therefore we can touch how this world is profound. I remember the movie reviews by Shinji Miyadai, a famous intellectual in Japan. Miyadai was the person who tried to discuss the "enigma" of our world and lives through various movies such as Shunji Iwai's, and tried to approach the real estate of this world (at least, for me). How does he read this book?

This evening, I had time so read Shinji Aoyama's that book (at last). Aoyama was a famous Japanese director and it is his diary. I was impressed because he had tried to "watch" various media. Movies, dramas, music... I listened to Bob Dylan's masterpieces like his and learned that he must have an "anachronic" and keen eyes as a point of view to understand this world. He was never a snob, a fashionable person who must be liked by "cinephiles". I missed him as an important person... but you don't say to me that "everyone is important". R.I.P.