Since yesterday, I have been reading Shunsuke Tsurumi's "Expectations and remembrances [鶴見俊輔『期待と回想』]" with a certain feeling of intimacy and respect. He has a motto in his book - Even though he can use English, he decides to pretend that he can't use it fluently... I guess (or I accept) this is not an appeal to his modesty, but a strict stance to look at this world with innocent eyes, and in a different way.
In a way, I believe that Tsurumi must be a brilliant, smart person with a sense of humor and the keen eyes of an "idiot". Therefore, by reading this book I can feel that his words have a certain warmth and charm (of course, I shouldn't treat these essences as his true personality - even though I have been tempted to do so.) After reading some chapters, I started thinking about that attitude.
Looking at my past footsteps... When I was a kid, I had been told that I must have been an absolute idiot, a completely useless man as a mistake in this world - but now, some people say to me that I am smart. Thinking about this, although this can sound too weird, I have to think that this world is as weird as Tears For Fears' songs - therefore, this severe process has made me this kind of twisted dude.
Oh, this interesting relationship between smartness and foolishness - but it might not be "I am smart, but pretend to be a fool." Because Tsurumi's attitude (and also mine) must be based on the fact that "everyone must make mistakes, therefore can be a fool." And, Tsurumi starts adding those mistakes with a certain positive meaning - he says that his one is a kind of "fallibilism", which means to add a certain positive meaning to our mistakes to push our thoughts forward, on and on.
By the way, a friend on X asked this on the timeline - Why do some people want to become creators? Yes, it is an interesting topic. I don't want to answer simply that it must be from a desire to become famous - even though it's a fact. Some people like me do their creations from their passion I believe. in ourselves, there is a fountain that floods/showers boiling water of our inner thoughts - therefore, I keep on writing this journal like this.
