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Today I worked late. This morning I've found that there were many messages from my friends within the LINE group I belong to. Suddenly I've remembered this idea - Once I posted on X about the difference between two concepts. They are "anti-social" and "ex-social/out-of-social." If I could define these words, then it would be "rebelling against any establishments" and "putting themselves into outside of any society." As you see, I've got this idea from the Japanese famous (and also, notorious) sociologist, Shinji Miyadai's theory.
As I've written above, "anti-social" can mean the rebel against something, so it can mean the attitude "relying on" the something (if they lost "the something", then they would lose the meaning of rebel.) But the "ex-social/out-of-social" attitude can mean how they can live their lives without relying on the outer establishments. They would live their lives being distant from any rational, logical society. It could become like fanatic cults, or psycho-killers, etc.
As I've written many times, I once had tried to live as a stronger, ultimate "super person" like Nietzsche's philosophy (although I have read his "Also Sprach Zarathustra" really lately.) I had tried to separate myself from any connection, any groups (including my family.) In a way, I had tried to live within my bedroom strictly with dreaming a crazy, daydreaming revolution. Yes, it must be a banal story. Now, I appreciate the connections I have been enjoying. There are many people who show me their precious smiles... That's for me a certain happiness.
Today, I've got a warm, sincere message from a friend of mine. She praises me as I must be a strong person, therefore (or because) I have been learning English strictly, diligently with a strong attitude... Indeed, I am glad to hear that. But, I say this. Maybe I am strong - but I can see that I actually have been polished from other people's kindness as any rough diamonds must be cut by other stones, or other hands to become good treasures.