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Today I went to borrow a collection of short novels by Naoya Shiga. I found that Shiga's sensitive eyes had gripped various small movements of our emotions. For example, he writes that a character's uncomfortable feeling even though he had done a good thing. I can feel why he had written like this. Naoya Shiga couldn't allow the people's simple personality. In other words, he must have felt that this kind of paradoxical, mixed, confused state of minds is our true states of minds. Then (if this can be true), I could have done a huge mistake about Shiga's novels. His novels could be an achievement of autistic author!?
Oh my. Basically I had thought that I should quit writing today's journal because there had not been anything. But... when I started writing about the books I had borrowed, my fingers actually started writing various things. My head is like a huge black box, which contains a lot of gadgets as I had written in this journal.
Today we had the English conversation class. I had a homework to the class, but couldn't have written anything. Rapidly I wrote about my voice. This loud, straight low voice... Once I had hated this voice. It must be too masculine, and also too noisy. But now, I start loving (or at least, accepting) this. This voice is a kind of good "tool" for me to deliver various wills/thoughts of mine to others.
And... in the class, today we discussed how we could celebrate culture. Already the Japan has a national holiday (the cultural day). But, do we want to celebrate any other, various cultural things more? Do we have to treat other cultural things more preciously? The discussion went from the Japanese "otaku" culture to various traditional things as viewing red leaves (or autumnal nature itself), and also tiny Japanese things as tiny praying before having meals.
After that, I made a draft for the next Thursday's meeting. I want to do a presentation about "the elite autistic people". How will it go?