BGM: Depeche Mode - Strangelove
I went to the library, and borrowed "American Psycho". I also chose to borrow Ryu Murakami's ones. I can't see why I borrow Ryu instead of Haruki, but I guess that Ryu's works has a certain meaning to me. Although I need to read Ryu's one more (with more careful attitude), I can recall that Ryu has tried to describe how the Japanese people can survive through this severe situation the Japan country has provided to us.
Today I met the facility manager of my group home, and talked about my money. After that, I felt too deeply to do anything actively so decided not to go out to do meaningful things anymore. I couldn't even read "American Psycho" actively because of my depressive mind. I could read the first 50 pages, and felt that the main character Patrick Bateman seems like an observer. Although he has his own (banal) opinion and even does his own action (eating, caressing a woman, and more), his appearance seems not being clear. Maybe... he is powerless like God? Of course, he does murdering after this part. I know that... but (if I could use paradoxical expression), he could "observe" his murdering? But I need to read the rest of this novel carefully, actually...
This evening, I sent LINE messages to my elder friend in Kobe. He answered to my silly venting honestly, with warm atmosphere... I have to be thankful to that. And suddenly I remembered that TODAY is the deadline I had promised to write an article to another friend. So I wrote the article... Oh, my autistic brain sucks!
After writing that article, I enjoyed chatting with other friends. From 10 pm, I attended a ZOOM meeting my Russian friend Victoria had started. The main theme of that meeting was about AI and our jobs. I wanted to answer it as honestly as I could, but it was too late night... I believe that the AI "helps" our jobs effectively, but won't "replace" ours completely. In other words, I believe that human beings can have their own wisdom and humanity.
