As I have written in this journal, I will be 49 this year. When I was a teenager, there wasn't the internet in this world, or my life (at least, it wasn't used as a convenient tool/infrastructure as now). I started learning English when I was a teenager, but the world hadn't been globalized yet, therefore I couldn't find any reason why I must learn it. Looking back at those days, I certainly feel that this world could have been changing.
Yes, everything is changing... Therefore I have to follow that motion. That's a truth. But also, I should keep one steady motto in myself for not losing my sanity in this severe modern life. What can be the motto I believe in now? A possible personal answer is this - In any situation, I try to follow my inspiration, not any "correct" ideologies (including "diversity" and "love and peace").
Following my inspiration, my inner voice... even though the majority taught me I must have been too strange, I have chosen this life. But, as a clear truth, that can't mean I am absolutely perfect because I am a human being, therefore I can make mistakes every day (already, within this journal, you can see my mistakes). The longer I live this life, the more I find how I can be a "random", "paradoxical" guy.
One of the paradoxes. For example, can we allow the freedom to commit suicide? Can we allow euthanasia as a way of being released from any sicken life? On X, I find this topic. About this, I want to allow the freedom of the decision of suicide or euthanasia, because there can be ultimately harder lives literally I can't imagine (they can be harder than euthanasia - if they feel like that in their recognition).
But, as my current belief, I don't want to kill myself by my decision only. Because, as my honest impression, my life must have been supported by others. Therefore, even though you would say this is a ridiculous idea or just a kind of silly wordplay, my life is a kind of creation with others for me, like this idea of mine has been made/influenced by plenty of books, music, movies - especially so many
"bubbly" mass culture...