I worked early today. This morning, I enjoyed the morning English meeting on Zoom as usual. There, a participant taught us that her personal computer had been infected by a computer virus. The other members and I tried to help her by giving various suggestions as advice. I wish her situation would get better... and also, I also felt this is a power of our connection/friendship.
During today's work, I've thought about the novel I am writing - Through this writing, I want to try to keep on asking this to myself. It is simply "Why have I been learning English?". It can be the core of this trial. Why... To become an internationalist? Or just being fluent in English seems really cool? I can't langh at these questions because these ideas are also the ones I have once had in this foolish mind.
Besides that writing, I have been thinking about diversity. One of the reasons why is because April has the "World Autism Awareness Day," therefore I need to think about what autism does mean generally. About this issue, we have to look at the "neurodiversity", which means our brains must have plenty of variety/variation.
Indeed, I am now living my life as having a sense of confidence/self-esteem with this autism. But, how could I have built this esteem? I ask this myself... and find that it must have been built by the various connections I can have had. Once, I had been bullied by a lot of (almost ALL of) classmates. But, now I have so many friends in this "global" world. What connections have enabled me to become this person?
What if I hadn't started learning English like this? Then, I couldn't understand how large this world is... I could even shut this self from any outer actual world, and become a hikikomori - with trying to think that my life is just on my own therefore I must live this life by myself alone.
But, as you can see, it must be wrong. Our life, this lovely life, must have been built by the associations with others I believe. Learning/speaking English actually always reminds me of that principle. Yes, we're not alone.
