I worked early today. At this lunchtime, I asked to myself this question - Why do I work? Maybe I could get any welfare to live on from this government without having any stresses... I remember that I've been working at this company for about 20 years. Why? I ask this to myself, but it seems nothing comes upon my mind. Why? This life seems really full of enigmatic essences...
I won't say that NEET (the person who has not been employed by any companies) must be bad, because once I was one of that kind of NEET. At that "blank" period, I had just read many books (Kenzaburo Oe, Haruki Murakami, Kenji Nakagami, etc.) to kill the boring time, and been soaked myself into gallon of alcohol. That kind of NEET or hikikomori period sometimes come to us as a kind of inevitable event. I believe that's life.
But, I have kept on working by now... Even now, I can't feel this job is a calling of mine. I ALWAYS keep on thinking that my talented ability must be to write something like this. But, even almost everyday I have to face a lot of bothersome events, I don't stop working... just because I am basically a poor Japanese? Too square Japanese...
Once, in my 30s, I had gotten into some social media activities. Even during my work, my mind had gotten into those media to post something cool to get buzzed. Oh, what a shame! At that time, I couldn't have found any funny/humorous events in my life, therefore I wanted to run away from the poor reality. Now, I can accept that I should stay on this earth to live this real life... I have written this as today's homework to show the teachers.
This evening, we had the final lesson of English class in this semester/season. At the first half of this class, we enjoyed listening to the songs as Ben E. King and ONE OK ROCK (this is a popular Japanese band.) to train our ability. After that, we started enjoying a chatting time. This kind of opportunity of communication in English is so RARE for me in this life, therefore I really appreciate this. After that class (or the party,) we took some memorial pics of the class.
