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Life goes on brah!

2024/03/04 English

BGM: Pet Shop Boys - Flamboyant

This morning, I did my homework writing for the coming English class. On that handout, I wrote about my own dream. Once, I had wished I could become a professional writer. Yes, it must have been a huge dream (or an ambition.) Now, I'm eventually having an interest in becoming an English teacher, or anything else who uses English as their job. Is it possible? I can't see.

TBH, once I had strictly, completely believed that any dreams of mine must be impossible to get realized/achieved. Indeed, there MIGHT be some successful people who could have made their dreams come true... But, I had thought that they must have been simply lucky guys. That's all, and therefore not related to my life... But, things seem changing actually. Now, I'm finding there is a certain dream which remains in me.

Probably - this idea is coming from the book I am enjoying now. It is Koutarou Sawaki [沢木耕太郎]'s "Midnight Express [深夜特急]," and in this book some travelers appear - they can't have found when they should end their travels, therefore just stay living in their "hand to mouth" lives in foreign places. I won't say that kind of lives shouldn't be allowed, but I also find that it might be the time to go out from this comfortable state to any severe zone at outside, as the author Sawaki has made his decision to restart his travel from India to Europe.

About this, I wrote on the handout paper. I shared this with some friends of mine (for example, the Chinese friend I had enjoyed talking yesterday, etc.) They enjoyed my poor writing, and sent me honest/warm messages as "Go!" Indeed, their embracing messages have empowered me a lot, but I have to stay calm about this. Reality always bites me so hardly - I think I have already known about this.

Oh, what a wonderful life. Before I had met the current friends of mine - especially, before having met the job coach... I couldn't have believed my inner power/possibility which enables me to become what I want to be. But, having dream can make this possible as a miracle. I won't say every dream should come true, but the power of having dream actually pushes me to go ahead actually, maybe infinitely...