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I worked early today. This morning, I joined the daily English Zoom meeting. On Sundays, we enjoy having free conversation time in English without any specific topics. Today, a participant shared an English-speaking activity he does as a member of the Toastmasters club. According to his sharing, they hold several bilingual speech contests in this country at a reasonable price. TBH, I've been interested in his (and also, other participants') sharing, so I want to google it more and more.
Starting at 10 a.m. (to 6 p.m. with an hour resting time in between), I did today's work. During the morning time when I was working so busy, I found that a female ex-boss I hate one of the most in this world appeared, and it caused me a strong "freeze", "awkward" feeling certainly (yes, it must be a sort of "flashback" of several traumatic events), so I left from my workplace to the rest room. I can't remember how many minutes I had stayed in there (maybe about half an hour).
Although I shouldn't have done so, I shared this with the ex-job coach soon (Please understand me. This was for me an emergency state). Then, she answered me with kindness. At lunchtime, after I had my lunchbox, I saw Twitter's timeline. If I were young, I would share that "flashback" event, adding plenty of slurs in public. However, I'm not so young that this time I just closed it.
Using a red frixion pen, I wrote about this morning's event on my memo pad in English. Tomorrow, I'm going to see my doctor about autism so I'll share this event with him. He is a specialist so he must tell me from his great knowledge about mental health.
How would my co-workers say about this event? They would say I must be so naive because they love that ex-boss so much. Yes, about this case, I should feel how lonely/isolated I have been. My friends would say I should correct my cognitive biases. I accept their ones. However, even though I try to do so, this sort of "flashback" always... SUCKS. F--K.
Basically, I try not to disrespect other people in these diaries. Needless to say, I'm never a saint with a pure heart (NO WAY!). I just don't have an interest in criticizing others a lot. However, today I've written about this absurd event (almost I write down slurs toward that ex-boss).
