I worked late today. This morning, I joined the daily English Zoom meeting as usual. After that, I went to the main house of my group home to enjoy the morning. Every morning of this sort of "work late" day, I have to face this huge pressure because it's tough for me to spend the morning free time as leisure time. Whatever I do to kill boredom or try to do several trials to make this time more creative, I can't get liberated from the pressure, which almost drives me crazy.
Tomorrow, I will join the weekly Zoom meeting with my friends. There, we will going to hold an event called "bibliobattle", where each member introduces their own favorite book to the other members. I've wondered what book I should introduce to them. Although there are some authors I want to introduce, such as Haruki Murakami, Yoko Tawada, and other keen authors, this time I finally chose the book I read yesterday, and wrote about it in my journal. An interpreter, Hiromi Sodekawa's book "I Can't Stop Interpreting [袖川裕美『同時通訳はやめられない』]".
Am I misunderstanding something? I try to read something (books, online articles, etc.) to make my thoughts verbalized or clarified enough. And, I write them on the memo pad in English. However, this morning I couldn't enjoy doing so because there seemed to be absolutely nothing on my mind. The more I tried to capture the things in that emptiness, the more they ran away from my hand. Finally, I had to give up. Even though I carried with me a favorite philosopher, Kojin Karatani's book about Wittgenstein, I had not opened it.
Instead, I found a piece of paper in my bag, so I drew doodling art on it. Yes, that's a sort of "miniature garden" of mine. As I've written above, I thought I shouldn't try to verbalize my ideas so quickly/recklessly. I could have to let my inner "trash" out on it as freely as possible... So, with my frixion pen, I doodled out. After that, I shared it with my friends through several social media such as WhatsApp and WeChat. Even though I couldn't have any confidence about whether it could deliver any meaning to them, they seemed to be pleased so much. I've been very glad to hear that.
