I worked early today. This morning, I joined the daily English Zoom meeting. Today, a newcomer joined our room (me and an elderly, very fluent member) so we exchanged information as a self-introduction. I told her that this morning's session is basically held even on New Year's Day (what the host members' huge eagerness!), and then she showed impressed emotion apparently on her face. After that, I started today's work at 10 a.m.
During the lunch break, I bought a "bento" (Japanese lunchbox) at AEON. There, I found that there were several illustrations and pictures that appealed that springtime was certainly coming. I'm not good at spending this season because (probably) the drastic change in temperature and also the outside scenery tend to drive me so mad. In addition, it seems that now I'm unconsciously struggling with a sort of "slump" somewhere in my mind, although I can't tell what's going on.
"Slump", or so-called "burnout"... As you can see this so easily, basically today is not the replica of yesterday. Every day has its unique face and content. As I've written in these diaries, I'm autistic so I tend to be fond of spending every day with a strict sort of routine, however, this planet is certainly rounding and it leads to the outside environment's/situation's eventual change. For example, Sakura (cherry blossoms) starts blooming and newcomers who passed their exams join companies or schools. Like that, life keeps circling on and on. How can I do anything to enjoy that circling? How can I "enjoy" it flexibly, instead of not trying to control it against its natural movement?
I tried to "cast" this question to ChatGPT's blank space as a silly message/question, and then it answered me so quickly. Yes, you might say that this must be a very empty conversation. However, like this, I might have to do various trials to find a way to get out of this "slump" phase...
After today's work, I went back to my group home. There, I tried to read the rest part of Haruki Murakami's "The Wind-Up Bird Chronicle". But maybe I had been so exhausted that I slept a lot even though it was 9 p.m. around. Now, it's 6 a.m. on the 23th day. Although I can still be in the "slump" phase, I believe that this trial of writing these journals will work for my English abilities to progress...
