I worked early today. This morning, as always, I enjoyed the daily English Zoom meeting (today's topic was how sleeping well enough can work for our learning language). As I've written, I'm so autistic that I tend to like this really "repetitive" pattern of daily life, which is made up of joining the English meeting, writing this journal, reading a book, and also working. Even though this repetition must be too nervous or precise, I can't stop living randomly by running away from this "orbit".
Since 10 a.m., I started today's work. This morning, a friendly co-worker asked me what my blood type was (I have A), and she said it must be understandable because of my very precise character. I can't trust this sort of judging someone's character (for me, it seems like a sort of fancy "fortune telling"). However, I had a delusive idea. How does she look at my autistic character? Like this sort of blood type judging, for her, does my autism mean just one of the tiny or casual essences that consist of this person? Even if it could be so, I won't say it must be bad because it might have to be treated in such a casual way, not a very serious way as I tend to do.
After that, I thought that this society seems to have been becoming very, very "autistic" for me, too. I mean, now this society (maybe, this country or this "cyberspace") tends to show their desire to manage/control our life so precisely. They tend to manage the time, money, and each one's life itself. You might laugh at this bullshit idea. I'm a male (belong to a sort of majority) so often lose how minority tend to face their several difficulties as I've written these days. But, from my viewpoint, this society (maybe in Japan only?) seems to keep trying to achieve a too precise or simply an absolutely clean utopia. I need to think about this idea more and more...
After today's work, I went back to my room. As I've written, on Thursdays, I join a weekly Zoom session with some friends of mine. Today I did a presentation about my daily life, which had content about how I usually spend my time (as I've written above), such as joining the English Zoom meeting, reading a book, working at my company, etc. After that, we talked about several things. For example, how my life has its exact rules, and also how this city is actually changing (referring to the book I was reading). It was a pleasant time... Thank you so much!
