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This morning, I joined the daily English Zoom meeting as usual. Today's theme was about how young people aspire for the so-called "in-person" communication in their workplace. As you know, I'm an autistic person. Maybe that's the reason why I can't "read" other people's true emotions through this sort of virtual media. The other members also said how important it is for us to see each other's faces, do greetings, and enjoy chitchatting casually. It was a great time.
I worked early today. During the morning work time, a veteran co-worker scolded me about the mistake she had found. TBH, it wasn't the one I had to blame. However, I apologized for it because I could make such careless mistakes and therefore needed to be careful (even though I'm autistic, now I can read this sort of invisible "atmosphere"). After that, I thought about this "fascinating" case.
Yes, I could "resist" that co-worker because I believed I was right (even now, I trust so). However, even though I am right, if I "push" my rightness too much it will make our relationship bad. The sort of issue about how to take a proper balance between rightness and emotions like this always makes me annoyed. Once, as you can see, I tended to push my rightness on several conversations so hard. Yes, typically I had struggled with "win-or-lose", and/or "all-or-nothing" relationships.
Then, how could I have gotten used to several real "grey" or "fuzzy" relationships? On Twitter, now you can see several users are struggling severely to find how they are right about several issues (especially, one of the hottest issues is about a Japanese noodle commercial video). However, even though I am right, I want to keep trying to find the words to "touch" other users' minds firmly, not to join silly and "bloody" conflict-like arguments.
This evening, I joined the weekly Zoom meeting with my friends. The topic was about asteroids, and after that, the host talked about radio station networks. Even though something had been wrong with my poor connection, I could enjoy the cozy "atmosphere" and this really "human" relationship with friends.
