This morning, I joined the daily English Zoom meeting. Today was a Sunday so we had no specific topic but enjoyed talking freely in English. At first, someone shared with us that he had enjoyed a hot spring to get released from the so-called mental fatigue that social media could cause. After that episode, we shared how each member tried to get liberated from their inner stresses/tiredness. In my case, mainly every morning I try to "vent" my inner trash like this. That can be one of the methods I can survive this bothersome life.
This morning, I went to the main house of my group home. There, I tried to write the rest of my novel "VISITORS", which recently I quit writing because I had to struggle with fizziness. However, I couldn't find any clue to write on the rest of it. Once certainly "the" story had attracted me well, and the characters kept on chatting in my head. But now, everything seemed "silent" like I was hanging out in a graveyard. So I had to give up completely.
This afternoon, there was a certain time and I went to the library. There, I decided to borrow Haruki Murakami's "After Dark". Also, I found Ernest Hemingway's English paperback "The Old Man and The Sea" so borrowed it. After that, TBH I tried to write the rest of my stuff again at AEON. However, I even felt "breathless" maybe because of the pressure, so I went to the book café to see its owner who is a painter to ask for any advice. Even though I hadn't made any appointments, he welcomed me and listened to my truth carefully.
He showed an interest in my story, and recommended that I should make a sort of blueprint or list that contains what ideas I want to put into it. Also, he said that my trial must be very precious because no alternative one would do my original/unique novel to realize it in this world. "You can do it. Good luck", he said so. After returning to my room, therefore, I had dinner and tried to write my list. I just have to try to believe that this would work well, successfully. Thank you so much. After that, I enjoyed reading Haruki's "After Dark" a little.
