I worked early today. TBH, this morning I couldn't have slept well. I woke up at 3 a.m. and wrote my journal as usual. After that, I couldn't go back to sleep, therefore I enjoyed chatting in English for a while on Discord. The ongoing topic was about a girl's honest confession. She said she wanted to move from the U.S. to Japan as a migrant. I wrote that in Japan the more "foreigners" speak Japanese fluently, the more Japanese people tend to treat them as "brilliant diplomats", but not as "our people" (writing this, I am actually looking at my inner bias which enables me causing discrimination toward those "foreigners").
I started working as usual at 10 a.m. However, the insomnia I've written about caused me to feel a certain fizziness, so I had trouble during my working time. Oh my. With that slight fizziness (that caused me a few careless mistakes during my work time), I thought about Japan. I want to believe that Japan is a good country enough, that people start having a welcoming atmosphere to others (especially, several cultures such as anime, manga, and literature are open-minded to anyone). However, probably because I'm too old and pessimistic (in addition to, too autistic) therefore tend to say this. "I'm sorry, but Japan is never a dreamland".
With that annoying fizziness, I sent some messages to the admins of my group home. One of them was that I want to start recording how I am spending a week actually. For example, when I go to bed, when I wake, when I enjoy the daily English ZOOM meeting, etc. If I can record them as accurately as I can, then I might be able to find any solution to this insomnia. It was, as I have written above, not a fine day. However, I praised myself because I could find this solution that would provide me a hope.
This evening, I enjoyed the weekly meeting on ZOOM with friends of mine. There, a member held a presentation about how he has been enjoying camping as a part of his daily life activities. TBH, I couldn't tell my opinion frequently because I was still feeling fizzy during his presentation (the host woman approved that, and let me rest). However, I've thought his presentation must be a sort of well-ripe fruit which must be tasty, and also full of content. Thank you so much.
