I worked early today. This morning, during my working time, I thought about my past days again. In particular, in my 20s and 30s when I had to find out I was autistic, and connected myself to several welfare systems in this country such as my group home and job coaches, etc... Literally, I had to "create" my own path toward here because there was no pioneer for me as a first penguin.
At lunchtime, I read a LINE message from a friend of mine. They grieved that the world seemed to be getting worse certainly, especially since recent notorious events made them feel so. Guided by that message, I googled and found a recent piece of news about Elon Musk, who had done a pose that lets us imagine the horrible Nazi era. I read an article about this on BBC News. I am interested in this one because it refers to the fact that Musk is autistic, therefore I even thought that this phenomenon would cause a sort of "backlash" toward autistic people like me.
On Discord, I posted that worry/anxiety in me as a comment. Then, some users gave me their honest opinions such as it was not from Musk's autistic character (autistic people around them wouldn't do such a controversial pose in public). It made me eased and calm actually... Of course, dear reader (YOU!). You can have any opinions yourselves, even though completely different from the ones I have written above. Now, all I just can say is this: Although in such a digitalized and speedy era, I want to trust (or BET) the steady discussions' potential which can change this world eventually. In other words, I CAN'T trust any revolution or drastic "force" that tries to turn everything upside down. Maybe it comes from my instinct (therefore, beyond any logical thinking system in me).
This evening, After having dinner, I joined the weekly Zoom meeting. There, a friend of mine did a presentation about a city's history in this prefecture. His narrative was really clear and precise, so I could imagine how our ancient' life could be. In my head, the bookish history that I learned in school and this vivid presentation got mixed into one with a slight fizziness. It is still a brilliant moment for me.
