I had a day off. This morning, after joining the morning English meeting on Zoom as usual, I went to a clinic to get vaccinated against influenza. Then, I got a message that said the meeting I would have had been canceled. After that vaccination, I went to the library to borrow something new, and found Han Kang's book "We Do Not Part" so I decided to borrow that. After that, I went to AEON and started thinking about various things as usual (yes, it was a very "orthodox", even boring day off for me).
At AEON, on a philosophical chat group on LINE, I found an interesting discussion was being held. Even though the theme must be very complicated for me to explain, it would be this; I like reading books and listening to music. However, in real situations maybe I am not the one who is choosing to do these activities by myself. In return, music and books might allow me to enjoy them. Does this sound so abstract? Probably... But, when I write my ideas on the memo pad, I find that this pen moves so freely beyond my control.
Another aspect... When I speak English, I often get surprised at this very automatic state of mind which always enables me to tell my opinions to others in English (even though my English must never be so smooth). Thinking about this, I find that (maybe I've written this once) somewhere in my mind there must be a large warehouse full of my variety of experiences and knowledge inside. However, I guess it's not in my brain, but within somewhere in this physical body (maybe, it can be the same place as my identity or heartful emotion engine itself).
This afternoon, I went to the main house of my group home to see the sub-admin and passed an important seat (and the vaccination bill, too). After that, I went back to my room and took a nap. After that, I couldn't find anything interesting. Even though I tried to read books, any motivation didn't move me, therefore, I went to the used bookstore I visited again, and found an interesting one so bought it.
This evening, I joined the "danshu" meeting. There, I shared my thoughts (almost secret irritations toward my private life) with the other members. After that, even though I wanted to join another English meeting on Zoom, I got so sleepy enough. Soon, I went to bed.
