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I worked early today. I could never find any firm/strong power that enabled me to go to the workplace this morning. I even thought that I should quit today's work; however, I couldn't do so. Therefore, I had to struggle with this idea so much. And, although I can't tell why I did, I decided to join the morning English Zoom meeting with my friends.
There, we four members enjoyed talking about various issues a lot. At first, I shared my bad mood with them. The other members accepted my depressive mood and attitude, and they started sharing how they would enjoy the coming Happy Holidays period. After that, a person I always respected shared his interesting episodes about Yoga and exercises. His stories must have had very deep, profound truths in them.
I was impressed by his stories and thought that this world must be so vast that the worries that certainly made me sicken might be much smaller than I was expecting. I have learned a new truth for me that this must be a reason why I could have kept learning English. Through this activity, I could have built my skills of English and also my personality itself as being so mature enough to see various people with my self-esteem. I wrote my Thanksgiving message to the Telegram group he and I belong to.
This afternoon, I read the previous job coach's LINE message she had sent me today. I told her that now I could feel that I started enjoying this life with pleasure from the bottom of my heart at last, and she told me that I could decide what I wanted to do. I could do what I wanted, and even I could love someone else. Yes, it was really great advice. I remember that once I terribly doubted about this emotion called love. I even tried to give up any possibility of my falling in love with someone and also tried to think/believe that love must be an illusion.
This evening, I joined the English conversation class. There, we learned about a traditional event, Thanksgiving Day. However, TBH I was so sleepy because I had been exhausted... That's life.
