I worked early today. This morning, my big boss (the top of the company) scolded us because of a misunderstanding (not my fault, but ours), and I told her my honest, alternative opinion even though it wouldn't be accepted. In this case, I was right, and that event taught me that I have to obey my nature and any instinctive character, which might tell any opinions opposed from me to the so-called major side of this world. Definitely, within me, I am feeding a devil or (an incubus?)
Even now, I trust (and even "love") my inspiration which has been constructed by the events I have experienced through this weird life. In other words, if I could say I was smart, then it would mean I had been trained by those events, therefore I had no talent in me. Yes, I am never a gifted guy. Also, in such controversial cases, that wicked character in me starts declaring its own opinions in public like the kind of cases I've written about above.
Should I have quit telling my opinion in that situation (because it must have been accepted as a silly, childish excuse)? Shouldn't I have tried to show how correct I could have been? Thinking about these, I have thought of an idiom that says "Correctness is a drug", which means I should be careful about the concept of "correctness" because it can also have a certain addictive essence within it I guess. Even though I was right, I could tell my one as an alternative, better way...
At least, one more thing I can tell you about the case above THIS line. Definitely, the reason (or at least, "a" possible reason) why I could tell mine to that boss must have been because of this activity, which says I have been learning English literally every day step by step, and also trying to declare mine in public, toward other people actively. I don't believe in any banal opinion such as English is relatively more logical than Japanese. However, as for me, thinking about various things in the English language's fertile web could have improved my logical thinking, even though I must be a very chaotic/absurd guy.
After today's work, I went to the dentist in AEON. Returning to my room, I had dinner and started reading the English paperback of "Reality+" by David J. Chalmers, but soon my emotional engine wore out because of tiredness... OH MY!
