This morning, I couldn't sleep well and woke up at about 2 a.m. As usual, I wrote in my journal about yesterday. After that, I gave up returning to bed and just enjoyed chatting with some friends in English on Discord. Although I can't tell how people observe this, at least from my viewpoint, I can express myself (my feelings, my opinions, etc.) better in English than in Japanese. Of course, it won't mean which language is better than the other. This fact just represents a sort of instinctive, systematized thinking system in me that suits the English style, (maybe therefore, I have gotten attracted to very English-style Japanese such as Haruki Murakami and Yoshio Kataoka).
At 10 a.m. I went to the library to borrow some books such as Haruki Murakami's "Dance Dance Dance". Then, I found an interesting, and in a way controversial author Benjamin Kritzer's [ベンジャミン・クリッツァー] book "モヤモヤする正義 [it's difficult to try to translate into English, but as my idea, I tell this 'Frustrating Justice']", which seems to me various "ongoing", "modern" phenomenon in this world such as "cancel culture (such as the "MeToo" movement)", "tone policing" and "microaggression", therefore it must suggest/teach me various wonderful opinions of him well.
At 1:30 p.m. I went to the main house of my group home to meet a person from the city office for a survey. She did serial questions to see how I have been living in this group home (yes, it seemed to me an interview with her soft attitude/atmosphere), and I tried to answer all of them as honestly (or precisely) as I could. After that, the sub-admin person praised my answering very well.
After that, even though I tried to read the rest of that Kritzer's book "モヤモヤする正義" with Tayler Deupree's or Brian Eno's music, (definitely, because the lack of sleep could have harmed my state of mind unconsciously) I couldn't concentrate on that marvelous work well. Therefore, I returned to my room and just lay my body on the bed doing nothing completely well. Yes, I slept so deeply... with a slightly depressed mood certainly (maybe just I had been tired physically a lot, so somewhere in my mind this inertia came as a messenger who delivered the one to take a deep rest well).
