There must be several "difficult", and "tough" questions for me to think about. For example, I am an autistic person but does it mean I'm having a so-called handicap? Because of this character within my brain, I can't drive a car even now. Also, it's challenging for me to do small talking (probably, for me, any topics that don't have any direction toward a certain conclusion are simply strange). In addition, every day I have to take some pills that reduce me more comfortable, and sweet sleeping time (because of my ADHD brain which can cause insomnia). Those troubles are very "tough" for me, however then is this autistic brain bad?
Like this, there are various questions (we can even make various "dangerous" questions such as "Should any murder be prohibited?" etc). On these topics, I try to think about how their better answers can be as honestly/precisely as I can. Because I still believe that, generally, correctness is good, or in a way universal. However, if I try to think about them as clearly/deeply as possible, I can lose my idea's core purpose (it's difficult to explain this, but for example, the more I get closer to any objects to see what they are in detail, the more I can lose what they are from the macro view of point).
Once, I had been so terribly "possessed" by the idea/bias that told me there could be only one ultimate correct answer (a so-called truth, or a very absolute ideology). Believing that silly/stubborn idea, I literally tried to "copy" the theories within various books such as Nietzsche and Wittgenstein, but my brain had (as I wrote above) its carelessness so I couldn't do so. Now, looking into my brain/inner space, I ask this: What ideology/ideal am I believing? The so-called left? Or the right?
TBH, I can't tell you about this alternative, a very "tough" question... all I can answer seems to be to me like this. About this kind of question, I just obey/follow my instinct/hunch which is within my body, this very "physical" existence which even feels its sweat and warmth because of its blood-running. Of course, even though I am just an idiot/ignorant guy, I try to use my brain. How can I combine/cooperate with them together well enough to become a better guy?
