How could I have released my inner frustration into the outer world "before" social media such as Twitter and Facebook had appeared? And "after" the era of Twitter began, how could this world itself have been changed? Personally, recently I rarely use Twitter to vent my frustration in public (at least, less than once when I was a heavy drinker). I can't tell the certain reason why for this change, but maybe it can be because (as I always write) my friendship connection has started becoming tightly in the real world, therefore social media has lost its fascinating charm which once kept tempting me.
Certainly... I admit that once when I had been so a very lonesome guy who had been abandoned in my inner scape or mentality, I tended to be attracted to Twitter's magical (and even destructive) world which seemed to me to allow venting everything in me to the public world. It was just when I had been diagnosed as an autistic person, therefore I literally complained very negatively about how this autistic life could be wrong or simply very absurd, and also really nonsense.
Then, how can I face and keep using social media to "exchange" the opinions of each user to build creative discussions/dialogues? It seems still difficult for me to "weave" any absolute/ultimate answer, but at least personally I can have "trained" my communication skills with trustworthy friends through various activities such as presentations and outdoor ones. Looking back to those memorial events, now I can find that the inner horrible beast that once had ordered me to gain any fame or material things has been losing its cursed, obsessive power and becoming a tiny "servant" that keeps following me.
At least, through looking at my memory of social media, now I can say that once I had been completely wrong, or simply an idiot. Although no one had asked me to do so, I even shared my IQ scores in public... What a shame! Oh, I have written long enough here, so probably next time I might write about how I have faced the horrible "desire for approval" in me which once had crucified me very seriously (I say it had even almost "destroyed" my life with causing flaming on the internet).
