From today, October starts. I have started wearing a long-sleeved shirt since yesterday, but it has still been warm and humid, therefore I'm worrying if this autumn we will be able to see red leaves (maybe we might not be able to experience any cozy autumn this year). Today, I worked early.
On Twitter, I read an interesting post by a female friend, Sunao San. She pointed out that autistic people tend to wish for the absolute correct answers to obey/follow, instead of hoping for freedom. Neurotypical people tend not to get strict about whether their beliefs are accurate or not, but autistic people tend to do so. Therefore, in conclusion, autistic people tend to like to make any template to do anything (they even make theirs even though they can do anything freely) strictly, even though those actions "bind" them so tightly.
I can see what she is saying because I also like to be bonded by strict rules (certainly, I even "make" them by myself even though people tell me "do what you like"). For example, when I work late and I'm free in the morning, I start getting annoyed with its too-vast freedom, therefore I get too irritated to get back to my bed to sleep again or to enjoy chatting with my friends idly, and go to AEON to read books (so, I am NEVER a diligent bookworm!).
Now, I can see that this issue can be seen as a philosophical one, which can be a paradox the current people can have. If you've been placed to be at huge freedom, at a too-free situation, then you can start wishing for any clue, any strict line to enjoy that situation (I guess this is a paradox Sartre pointed out).
Of course, I never know whether you're autistic or not (but as you know, autistic people and neurotypical people are on the spectrum/gradation as autism's meaning suggests). However, at least I believe that this theory certainly helps you find why we get irritated with our too-free state of mind, and start to wish for any strict/tight rule to obey even though charismatic people suggest "do what you like".
This evening, I enjoyed chatting on the app LINE, where a participant asked me how many friends I needed. Even though I have many friends (I have never counted though), basically I like to stay cozy with the number of friends that could fill any tiny restaurant or pub in a town (a sort of metaphor, though).
