A day off today. This morning, I went to AEON to prepare for my presentation on Zoom which I would hold this evening. However, I couldn't concentrate on that therefore, I went to the library to change my mood. There, I borrowed Brian Greene's "Until The End of Time", and found an interesting word within another book, which was "莫妄想 [this means 'Stop your delusion']". The book taught me that it came from Zen, a concept I had never known.
As you know, definitely my mind must be filled with plenty of crap pieces of delusion, so I accept this encounter with this concept as a lucky sign to me. Yes, I should just face this severe, enigmatic reality, throwing the fear my mind is creating all the time... I googled about this concept and found an interesting slang that describes "delusion" as saying "delulu", which is being used by the young generation (I heard so).
Even though, this morning all I could have done was almost nothing but find that word, I was satisfied with that result. Oh, that says I must be a very simple person who can't stop thinking anytime even though those ideas could be crap/junk. Then, I need to be careful not to get delusional too much by "digging" those ideas too seriously, within my inner hole.
One night has passed since the hospital's treatment, and I still feel the part where the wisdom tooth existed has a certain heat, and my cheek has expanded slightly as a balloon. Oh no! I started reading Koutarou Sawaki's non-fiction about his father "Nobody [沢木耕太郎『無名』]", and at 5:30 pm I went to the dentist near my home to check that part by the doctor.
This evening, on Zoom my friends and I had a meeting, where I presented the manga, Tokiko Komaki's "My Leisurely Language Diary [こまきときこ『つれづれ語学日記』]". After that, we enjoyed discussing how we have been learning English in each member's life. A friend asked us what was the purpose of learning, and also what was the motivation. For me, I want to keep learning English just for pleasure to grow up day by day certainly, and also want to become a sort of guide or "bridge" person who can connect this city and the world. Of course, the road still lasts long, though. Oh no, I am becoming too "delulu".
