After taking a bath this morning, I attended the Zoom meeting in English as usual. There, a participant praised my English a lot. Of course, I've been glad to hear that. However, TBH I have never thought that my English could be fluent, at least there must be so many "fluent" people like me. Sometimes people ask me where I learned English like this. Still, all I can say is just the facts such as I attended a university to study English literature, then, I had to spend my youthful days in vain because of alcohol, and since I was 40 I have started learning English again.
I strictly believe that the pleasure of learning English can be owned by not only fluent people, but also everyone (literally, all the people who want to learn English). Sometimes some people ask me why I have a certain self-confidence in my English. However, my English level can be just at the intermediate level (not so high, or too low). I will just keep on following the pleasure of learning as I wrote.
As I have written in these journals, when I was a college student I had been literally a stray cat or coward who couldn't tell my will certainly to others with pride or strength. Yes, even though at that period I could join the English conversation classes, I couldn't even do self-introduction to others (they must have thought I had not been so serious). Oh, what a shame!
Now, if you would see my English could sound very proud, then it could be from the experiences and (maybe) the efforts I have made in my daily life, not from my gifted talent. At least, I won't believe in my talent. I just do what I like, and that has brought me to this level.
Do you think I am fluent? Maybe... But you would feel disappointed with my presentation skills if you would be able to enjoy that. In other words, I am not at the top of anything which only leads me to go down, but am on the road to learning English which will bring me anywhere nice. Now I'm 49 therefore not so young, but want to write down my own truth for you.
