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I had a day off today. This morning, I went to AEON to enjoy my free time by reading or listening as usual. However, probably because of depression or just tiredness, I couldn't get into anything. Only time passed in vain, so I went to a mountain in this town again to release my mind into the atmosphere loosely. In the park on that mountain, I started playing Karl Hyde's ambient music "Edgeland" and let my mind be as it worked.
Although I couldn't find what Karl Hyde was singing in these tunes, his beautiful and gentle voice fit in the scenery well. I felt I could have enjoyed the great holy/tranquil atmosphere. Some people would say this kind of expression is simply too "smelly", but I could even feel that my wounded mind (because of these stressful days in this modern life) started connecting to the vast, enigmatic world.
After that, I came down from the mountain to my group home and had lunch. And, I decided to do nothing special today. Although I had a long time until dinner time, I just enjoyed reading a Japanese author Keizo Hino's short novels. I remember that Hino has always been the person who certainly led me to Brian Eno's great ambient works through his brilliant review.
This evening, I attended the weekly meeting on Zoom. Today's topic was the moon in this season, especially the beautiful scenery which has been known "jyuusan-ya [十三夜]". The presenter shared with us how ancient people had enjoyed the moon and stars in their life, and also how we can enjoy gazing at them now.
After that, I started writing the draft for the coming presentation I will do the next week. Writing that, I hesitated to write the memories about when I was a college student. The "stem" of the presentation is about how I am learning English (with reviewing Tokiko Komaki's essay about learning), but by writing that I had to go back to the days when I couldn't find any motivation, any chance to start learning English (even I had lost the meaning of living this life). However, now I can tell a personal answer to that simple question. For me, to live is to keep on moving forward, or to learn something to become wiser... Oh, it sounds like Coco Chanel's quote.
