I usually use the memo pad with its brand name "Mnemosyne", the goddess of memory (sorry, I don't know the myths certainly). However, as you already might know, this goddess's charming and enigmatic remembrance performance always makes me sick... Now, I'm writing about how my "vivid" memories can vanish easily as time passes, and how I'm trying to dive/dig into the depth of my consciousness to find the goodness/sweetness I certainly had experienced.
This morning, I joined the morning English meeting on Zoom and enjoyed a discussion. Today's topic was about how is the relationship between alcohol culture and our lives. I told the other members that I had quit drinking for about 9 years completely, and also shared with them that I had started attending the so-called "danshu" meeting (just like Alcoholics Anonymous meetings). TBH, once when I just had quit alcohol, I couldn't think this could be a proudful/great achievement, but now I can be proud of this (but I still wish I could drink alcohol, and enjoy the dazed state of mind the alcohol affords somewhere in my mind... I'm sorry!).
Besides the beginning of quitting my drinking life, during today's work, I remembered various events my life story contains. For example, the first time I read Haruki Murakami's works. Also, the event that a friend got mad about my childish behavior, and brought me to think about the possibility that says I could be an autistic person. At that moment, the only clue was the article Oliver Sacks had written about Temple Grandin, who is well-known as an autistic person (at that period, it was called "Asperger Syndrome"). Although I have never read this book before (so I have to feel embarrassed about this "stealing" action), however as Vladimir Nabokov's autobiography's title says, I should say these words to myself. "Speak Memory".
After today's work, I joined the meeting with my friends on Zoom to learn about food allergies, but there seems not to be enough space to write about it. However, I want to write about when was the first time I started to attend this series of meetings on Thursdays. That has been another achievement I have gotten.
