Even though (maybe) the peak of this summer seems already gone, (this is definitely!) I am in the so-called "middle age", so the energy/vitality in me must be draining out from this body, eventually... This morning, I couldn't get well. Although I had thought that the Zoom meeting I always enjoy would "reboot" my mind, I couldn't get well again. I almost sent some LINE messages to my friends to find out whether I could go to work. In a way, I wanted to "spill out" my truths to them. However, I even couldn't find out what I would be able to type simply.
However, although this can be one of the beliefs I have learned from this life, the time must go anytime. At 10 am, I started my work at last. I just tried to move my body (yes, my fingers and my feet... even every single hair of mine), and then I could get the basic/elemental clues of my job bit by bit. During that work, I remembered the movie I always loved in this life, "Rocky". The main character Rocky was not so great guy because of his almightiness as a superhero, but just was a guy who tried not to get defeated by himself in my opinion...
Anyway, today's work has been completed at last... In other words, the "leaving" time from my workplace has come. However, I needed to prepare for tomorrow's (personally) big event, to go to a hospital in the next town by bus (my autistic brain always disturbs my driving car therefore I need to use that kind of public transportation). As I have written, the time went till the night time. Cruelly? Or Gracefully?
I have remembered... This morning, other participants in the Zoom meeting asked me why I have been learning English. Anytime I am asked that kind of question, I give a single/simple answer as I want to become a sort of bridge between foreigners and this town's people (should I use the word "residents" to describe them? Even though, actually now many immigrants try to become that sort of "residents"...). Of course, I need to learn/practice more. But anyway, now I can feel a certain touch of the concept of "happiness" in my mind because of that, by remembering the drunken days I had to spend during my 20s and 30s, when I just had drained my ones out in vain.
