I worked early today. This morning, I attended a Zoom meeting in English to enjoy discussing various topics as usual. Today's topic was about so-called subscription services for watching various movies such as Netflix and Amazon Prime Video, and also cinema culture. We shared various memories of the cinema we have enjoyed by now. For example, a member told us that she had enjoyed "Barbie" a lot, and I said Yasujiro Ozu's "Tokyo Story" was pretty incredible, and so on.
Today at lunchtime, I thought about what I would talk about with a friend of mine tomorrow. Now, Japan is during so-called "Obon", a Japanese traditional homecoming season therefore she has also come back to this town. Having sushi as lunch, I remembered once she showed her honest anger to me when I had used the word "junk in my mind" to describe my journals or something on Facebook (Indeed, now I would use "gems" to tell that).
Why do I hurt myself like this? Why do I keep on disrespecting myself... Thinking about this, I remembered that another friend asked me this. "Do you want to change yourself seriously or not?" TBH, about this I guess I wouldn't be able to change myself completely. Because in the core of my mind, I think that this is the main/basic attitude of mine to survive this troublesome life. About this kind of topic (in other words, about my nature itself), I tend to remember the tale the movie "The Crying Game" tells to us. You can find how the tale is on the internet...
I went back to my group home. After having dinner, even though out there people enjoyed a fireworks festival in the park near my home, I had been too tired already to go out again and enjoy that. I attended a Zoom meeting by an invitation from someone on Twitter. There, we talked about autism and also how our lives can be troublesome, and also lovely. I have certainly learned from this meeting about how precious the self-love is.
After that, I read a part of Jie-Hyun Lim's book "Victimhood Nationalism". Even though I have just read two chapters of this book yet, I am finding that, as this book explains, now we can connect our issues such as various traumatic memories from wars and also feminism movements. That's so-called globalization (or so-called global standard) I think...
