Recently, I posted relatively many fragmental opinions on Twitter to discuss autism even though I have been writing in these journals, I am just an ordinary old dude. About this (for using Twitter or any other social media), I have to be careful to remember that I should always stay calm enough to respond to other people's opinions modestly because simply I am not good at having discussions with others openly with a certain entertainer's spirit. All I want to do is just to clarify my opinions enough to share with others in public, to reach an ultimate or universal truth.
Therefore, I try not to get heated up too much in my emotions and carefully not to have arguments/battles with others, even though many opinions have made me confused and angry. When I was in my 30s, I tried to pretend as strong as I could and try to do enough to defeat someone else with my logic. At that period, I had been haunted by the idea that any strong, forceful logic would rule this world.
The one thing I keep trying to keep in my mind is this. I say yes to the opinions I can affirm, and also say no to the ones I want to doubt. In other words, I just keep declaring my opinions not from any firm positions as liberal or conservative ones, but trying to be dutiful to my honest, instinctive feelings. I put my instinctive feelings onto any logical/brainy thinking.
Reading Twitter's timeline, I was surprised that some autistic people keep on trying to say who could be the true weak ones who should be cared for by others. They even try to make an order of priority depending on each one's handicaps, and also judge who can be the true/genuine weak autistic one. Even though I agree with their opinions partially, I don't want to support this because from my viewpoint it seems to allow making an order among autistic people violently, therefore it can work doing genuine discrimination.
Of course, even among autistic people, one's handicap can appear differently from others (for example, even though I love reading books I can't read manga, but other people can read manga instead of words themselves). And those variations of handicaps can show we aren't equal in our handicaps. However, I believe that basically (yes, I say a principle in myself) each one's handicap must be unique, and also a mission the one should face in their life by themselves.
