This morning, I attended a Zoom meeting to enjoy a discussion in English. The theme was about so-called "alcohol-free" beer, and I shared my own story about how I stopped drinking alcohol and started accepting this troublesome, but also lovely sober life (for me, even those alcohol-free drinks would remind me of "real alcohol" again, therefore, I don't want to drink anymore). Of course, you can choose if you drink alcohol (about this, I won't make any lie. Alcohol can let me forget this life's gravity completely... Only for a MOMENT). I won't say this society must prohibit alcohol anymore but I just understand that I must lose my mind if I drink alcohol again, therefore I choose not to do so.
On Discord, I had another discussion about the education system's problem in this country with another member. This lunchtime, I remembered that and thought about this. Am I a mature adult who can have strong self-esteem or pride in me? About this, I have to go back to the fact of how I have lived my life without any firm tactics, therefore at least I can say I am never a smart one... I am just the only one who tries to take responsibility for the result I have created.
In my mind, I can feel that there must be many aspects of my character. One of which must be so childlike that always gets attracted to actual material pleasure such as lovely women, interesting books (today I borrowed Jack Kerouac's "On The Road" and Vladimir Nabokov's "Lolita" from the library), and wonderful music. However, somewhere in my mind, there must be another one that is working as a master/father of this self (but about this, I have to learn about my mentality from Freud's masterpieces).
This evening, I attended a Zoom meeting to enjoy a young friend of mine's presentation. The content was about this region's history and cultural heritage, His explanation was so crisp that I could enjoy it a lot. After that, the host of that Zoom meeting group (we're also connected on Facebook) asked me to do the next presentation of mine. I am thinking about that now. I can remember that last year I did a presentation about poetry. How about the one about Vladimir Nabokov, especially about "Lolita"? Is it too "adult"?
