I had a day off today. This morning, I attended a Zoom meeting to enjoy conversation in English. Today was a so-called "free talk" day, therefore we could enjoy talking about various things frankly such as Trump and Biden. Then, someone started the topic of Mensa, which attracted other members' interest. In my case, when I had been diagnosed as an autistic person, I learned how much my IQ could be. My IQ has not been high enough for me, therefore now I have no silly dream of joining Mensa anymore.
As a too "innocent" bias, when I was young I had thought that smartness would rule everything in our daily life. This could mean that if I am not smart, I should obey the smart people who would decide/determine every issue forever (like fearing AI's ruling our life too much). What a shame! I must have been so-called a too childish believer in "elitism". Now I believe that people's dignity (the price/value of everyone's existence) must be based on the precious human right, or each one's precious identity.
However, my current idea must have been built through various activities such as meetings on Zoom and in the real world, and also the daily conversations with my friends who also have several troubles from autism. Therefore, looking at that fact, I find that whether I am so-called gifted or not (I believe I am never so), I have been here through other people's precious help. Sorry if this sounds too dry and stubborn, but I am writing a fact, not any beautiful lie as various media still keep on spreading into this world such as charity TV Programs (even though I believe those activities must still have their value).
BTW, today I attended another meeting about autism on Zoom, where I enjoyed learning about this town's service of group home. I did a presentation about how I have been building my talking skills and my self-esteem (my self-dignity) by learning English. However, some members showed that they were feeling bad about their health, so we quit having the meeting halfway through (I am praying for their getting better soon again). I heard in Japan this summer will be very, very hot, so I have to be careful not to hurt my body and mind with heatstroke and also the air conditioner's breezing/chilling air. After that, I went to the library to borrow Kenji Nakagami's and Levy Hideo's books.
