This morning, I attended a Zoom meeting in English. There, I heard breaking news about Donald Trump who had been shot by another participant. After that, I went to AEON as usual to read a book. TBH, this morning time I didn't see my smartphone to check what other people were saying about this assassination attempt. Indeed, this must be an important event. But, although I can't tell the reason why, maybe I wanted to separate myself from the world to become alone... as I always do every morning. Yes, this is a so-called autistic life.
After that morning reading activity, I went to a library. There, I borrowed Evan Osnos's book "Wildland [エヴァン・オズノス『ワイルドランド（上）』]", which is about the US history from 9.11 to the Trump era. Some people would say I have been wasting my time by reading introvertly, without doing any actions to change this world (maybe they would say I should make my efforts to get sweated). However, I want to keep declaring this - I am neither a pro commentator who appears on the various media or news sites, nor a pro critic who must have a certain knowledge or intelligence to analyze this scandal. I simply swear that I am an ordinary guy who still keeps on reading, thinking, and even trying to do various actions like this.
On Discord, some friends (especially in the US) showed how confused they had been. Even though I hadn't been a supporter, naturally I remembered the ex-prime minister, Shinzo Abe. This afternoon, after having lunch and enjoying afternoon nap time as usual, I read Osnos's book a little.
Looking at the internet, even now I can find that there have been various struggles (yes, actual flaming events). People call me just too simple, too optimistic idiot... but even though it could be so, I need to stay calm to keep on trying to learn about various things, and also thinking steadily because simply I must not be good at doing any discussions to judge how I am absolutely/ultimately right. Yes, I can make silly mistakes... All I can do (I guess) is just to face that ignorance, that limited abilities in mine with the courage to improve myself bit by bit.
