My boss has given me two days off, and today was the first day. This morning, I went to AEON to enjoy my morning activities (reading and writing notes in English) as usual. Reading the rest of Levy Hideo's "Japanese Language's Victory [リービ英雄『日本語の勝利／アイデンティティーズ』]", I've found that one of the essences of my identity must be the fact that I am Japanese who usually uses the Japanese language, even though I try to keep on practicing English to get improved.
During reading time, I sometimes looked around and noticed that almost everyone (yes, literally everyone) was gazing at their smartphone. It could mean that at least no one was free from this planet's global internet connection (it must sound like "serial experiments lain"). Oh, the times have changed as this... What if I had encountered the vast global village, or the ocean of the internet at my young age? For a while, I imagined this. Could I have been moved into a so-called underground zone within the internet?
I remember owning my website in the corner of this web (it started at the end of the previous century). However, at that time I had been just a too troublesome, isolated guy therefore any friendships I had tied couldn't last long. As Bob Dylan's song expresses, I must have needed to be watched by intimate friends... Now, can I be such a "trustworthy" person? No way. I am still weak and "fishy", just a tiny "ecchi" guy.
I have been attracted to an essay within Levy's book which was about how I can describe myself as an introduction. For example, I say myself as an employee of a department store, and also as having autism certainly. Also, I say myself as a Japanese old dude who has been liking Jazz. Those things tell me that I have consisted of many pieces of identity (yes, possibly they can be too many ones like stars because my imagination can keep on asking about this almost endlessly). Then, how should I name myself as the one and only, trustable/responsible person?
For a while, quit asking about this serious issue... I enjoyed weaving a lewd, sweet daydream within my mind. Yes, as I have written above, you must not trust me too much because within my head some tasks of thinking must be going on/working. The riot is always going on.
