BGM: Phil Collins - Both Sides Of The Story
Today I worked late. This morning I enjoyed chatting a little in English on clubhouse. After that, I went to AEON and thought about an idea in my mind. It's about the "responsibility" (we Japanese sometimes use this as the "Jiko Sekinin", which means "responsibility for oneself"). As you know, this concept can work severely to one's life. We have to think about our lives as the results we have done, therefore we are the ones who have to owe the responsibilities completely to our lives... Indeed, that attitude is important. For example, I have been working at the current company. That is a choice I have been making. So I have to owe the responsibility towards to my working because I can quit it anytime if I hate it. Therefore, I have to work without any complaints... I can feel that severe pressure. I can remember that I have been taught as "Quit that job soon" or "Live separately from your parents". But I couldn't have chose them... is it because of my choices?
From my point of view, I have never quit my job because I have not had anything to do except that job. I couldn't be a unemployed one (we Japanese say that as a NEET). And I have never abandoned my parents because they were too old to live alone by themselves. And also I had no money simply. From those reasons, I have lived this life even if I could choose any "alternative" ways to live. That might be a life. In other words, we can't say that everything must be from one's choices easily. We should do what we do following/concerning what can be the best to do within the limits. And that life can be controlled by uncertain things. Chances would work as factors which control the lives. Me, I can never say that it is from my choice completely to learn English with an interest. Indeed, once I had an interest in translation in English. But I have to say that learning English literature or connecting myself with various friends internationally are forming the current life of mine. In other words, it is by random chances.
Then we have to concern about the difference between the sceneries. The one the person is watching can be different from the one from me. Not judging from my side clearly, but trying to be someone with imagining his/her stage. That tells us how important to try to overcome the "separation"... And this "separation" must be an important keyword. As I wrote yesterday, I should try to understand different religious people like Muslim. And also trying to think about the foreigners in my town. Accepting them with tolerance instead of blaming them. By the way, how enigmatic our lives are! Me, I am just a weird autistic person therefore beyond their understanding. I am just living based on my policy, but they would think that I am just a monster who speaks English. How should I face that "separation"?
I finished reading Maria Ressa's book, a journalist from the Philippines. "How to Stand Up to a Dictator". It is really an interesting book which tells us the fighting spirit she have. That has enabled her to create the way of journalism in her country Philippines. Like George Orwell's "1984", the history can be rewritten by the establishment easily. And also there are also a lot of pieces of fake news... How can I survive such a terrible situation? She blames Facebook so severely, and it makes me impressed. About me, I have enjoyed reading like this certainly. This is because I want to try to see/judge the essences without being dazed by fake. How to overcome the confusion and misunderstanding because of fake? How to overcome the "separation"? This suggests me that everything I am thinking is connected loosely. Of course, I can't understand someone else completely. But I also believe that it shouldn't be actual to abandon that someone. It can be dangerous.
