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Recently I couldn't read books well, and today I couldn't read "The Navidad Incident: The Downfall of Matias Guili" anymore. Indeed, For me reading is not my job so I should read as I can, but it seems that it is related with the fact that I have got aged certainly. I remember that I had been into Haruki Murakami's works "without eating and sleeping". I won't say that young days must be great, but I feel that once I could read in such a deep way was because I was exactly young therefore I had vitality. I should do more "extrovert" activities (as travelling or studying abroad) when I was young. But anyway I am getting into the stage I would have to lose my power. I have to read just one books quite slowly, so I would change the book to Jack Kerouac "On The Road".
During work, I couldn't see completely how the WBC was. At lunchtime I learned the result. Japan won the game against Mexico. Once I "dissed" a little bit about the WBC fever, so I have to be ashamed of it. But, even if the fever is still increasing, around me there is not any fever of the WBC (of course, this is just in a small circle of friends so never be the trend of the world). I wonder where this gap comes from. I can't understand how the baseball is, but I don't want the movement of "thank you for the impression". If we the Japanese people had to thank for the impression of those baseball games, that would mean nationalism could come again. Of course, I won't say nationalism must be evil, but I can't follow that as a people. This is just a comment of an idiot...
A friend of mine decides how he will spend the day with planning his schedule in detail neatly. It is the opposite of mine. I just spend my days randomly. I sleep yawning when I want to sleep, and I read books when I want to read. Once, at a certain period I thought I should follow him, but if I decided the schedule completely then I couldn't move because of that tight plan. Once I decided to read a books per a day, and I couldn't do so (of course!) and felt I was a loser. Yes, I was young and fool. But recently I am not enjoying any movies so start thinking "I want to watch two movies per a week". I am worrying about that. I would try to have some new habits of every day as using apps like Audrey Tang.
The life of "reading so many books as I want to read". It would be the opposite life of "not reading the books I 'must' read". As I wrote this many times, I had been scolded many times as "why did you not read such great books like this?". And I even thought I was lazy because I couldn't be interested in Dostoevsky even I was older than 40 years old. According to the experience of that period, we might need to wait for the time comes. The time that we will be able to meet the books we should read (yes, it is like our lives themselves). If we couldn't meet those books, we had to give up meeting. I remember the marvelous readers as Kenzaburo Oe tried to read Dickens or Spinoza steadily, so I have to be embarrassed as I read the books "too much". Or I can never become Umberto Eco so I need to find my own way of reading. Anyway, I want to dig the "Complete World Literature" edited by Natsuki Ikezawa.