BGM: The Chemical Brothers - Let Forever Be
About a few years ago, when this corona pandemic had just begun, I went to the Tokyu Hands in Himeji. I bought the memo pad "Mnemosyne" and started writing my thoughts in English. Since then, I used Japanese when I wrote memos. But it couldn't be kept as a long habit. I got my friend's opinion that says "at the conversation in English you look really pleasant", and that was the clue for me to try to use English. That "suits" me smoothly. What are our efforts? The important is to find the way that "suits" us efficiently. It makes our efforts actual. I learned this from that fact.
Once I believed strictly that being an autistic person meant unhappiness and misery for me. I blamed autism as everything was brought from this handicap... now I keep on telling autism to our company through the activity of my job coach, and I also started learning autism that wasn't unhappy for me simply in this life. But this became from the meetings with various friends. If I was alone, I would stay in my world lonely. I would be sick from the solitude and lose any hope in my life. I am happy now... now I have many friends and also find a certain meaning in my work.
This evening we had the meeting we always have on Thursdays. Today I learned about "psychological safety". The concept that lets us feel comfortable because of being accepted certainly. Everything I say would be accepted and listened to... I can't read the lines at the communications in my workplace. I always say wrong comments so am treated as an alien. But diversity is the key concept that accepts that kind of alien and develops steadily. Indeed, it would have various troubles so I am interested in that concept in other people's workplaces.
After that, I found the time to read Hitoshi Nagai's "Philosophy for kids". Why this emotion belongs to me, this person... I can remember questions from this book about that kind of existence etc. This world I see is a virtual one for me only, and everyone has their scenarios that enable us to stay alive... Indeed, this idea has been created by the fact I watched various TV dramas too much, but then the fact that everybody has their ego and subject that asks us "why I am I". We are the cluster who have their egos and subjects. This world is a network of encountering many friends... This fact tells us what is this world. It is really enigmatic. This world, this life have told us that it is just great... It reminded of Wittgenstein or Kazushi Hosaka's world.
