BGM: pupa - Creaks
This morning I got quiet because I read a piece of sad news. Yukihiro Takahashi passed away. I am just a listener of Yellow Magic Orchestra(YMO), so I can't follow his solo albums or side projects. In short, I am just an "immature" listener. But by listening to the YMO again I learned that their music is the battles within their "colorful" talents. In my opinion, YMO has enough value to be the "Japanese Beatles". Yukihiro Takahashi's sense of pop is great as Ryuichi Sakamoto's sweet melodies and Haruomi Hosono's profound ambiance. I love his soft voice. R.I.P.
Today was the day for me to attend the meeting about autism. I had to update ZOOM to join (my computer is old enough to get along with... poverty sucks!). I talked about "Taipa" as the "Time performance" at another meeting I had last Thursday. The members gave me various opinions actively. A person said that the opinion which says "training must be a waste of time" should be discussed by multiple aspects between "it's right" and "it's too extreme". In short, we can't decide or judge whether that opinion is simply good or bad. I was impressed that the comment is right so I have to reflect on my presentation. I have to think about my opinion steadily with having a few processes. I want to think deeply from multiple stances.
After the meeting, in my free time, I went to the library and borrowed Bin Kimura's books which were recommended on Facebook, and I enjoyed myself. I read Shinsuke Shimojo's "Subliminal Mind" and learned about cognitive dissonance. It says that I can't keep paradoxical opinions in my mind so I can't stop being assertive myself. For example, the opinion that says "drinking alcohol too much would hurt me", "I want to stop drinking a lot" and "alcohol must be a good medicine" is paradoxical. One side would beat the other one. Once I had this kind of conflict in myself many times, and tried to believe that "drinking must not be harmful". It is a bitter memory for me.
Quoting various dates from many experiments, Shinsuke Shimojo's book tries to explain the complication or ambiguity of our cognition. I treat myself as one personality, but can I say that I am the person who understands myself the most? My memory or recognition might tell mistakes or lies. Or "subliminal" things which already appear in this book's title would tell me a lie. I guess my way of learning the world would be different from others. This opinion might be able to be connected to the topic of qualia. "The red thing I watch is different from another person's"? If it's so, then it would be almost the same as Wittgenstein's philosophy. They are getting into one in my mind.
