BGM: Ben Folds "InBetween Days"
Today was a day off. This morning I thought about the thing alone. I should stay in this room and do nothing... I had completely stopped thinking of any good ideas. But if I skipped today, the next off day would be the day I would have to do many things. I also have various things I will have to finish by the end of this month (so if it is late, everything would be uncompleted). So I went out of the room with a struggle (this experience tells me that rooms have a specific magical power. Hikikomori people might be addicted to their rooms). I finished shooting the influenza vaccine and renewed the note of mental illness.
This afternoon I took a nap and wrote a promised mail to a job coach. I wrote the troubles I am having honestly. TBH I made serious trouble at the workplace yesterday too. I feel really thankful for the fact I have arrived now because I can use job coaches at last. How does she accept the problem? After that, I had time so went to a barber shop and had my hair cut. I chose clue cut. And I read Kaito Touhata's "Staying is hard" a little. I thought that this is an interesting one, so it would become another one which should be chosen as this year's best.
This evening I went to the 'danshu' meeting, which was after three weeks because I had to work a lot. I confessed the trouble at the workplace as an episode. Members accepted my episode so I felt fine. Yes, life is hard but I am with job coaches, and also the members of the 'danshu' meeting. Once I had thought that I should solve every problem by alone (and it had been impossible). I believe that relying on other people doesn't mean being addicted to other people. It must be one of the wisdom to live on.
After that, I found time to read Eiko Ikegami's "Intelligence as autism" again. In this book, the autism is placed in "neurodiversity (the state various brains show)" which is beyond the difference between normal and abnormal. People's brains are clearly different from each other and that difference is the one that supports the diversity of human society. Me, I was once obsessed with the idea that said I must be really mad. I had a hard difficulty living. But after I learn that diversity is the core concept, I can accept things from a creative and positive point of view. I thought that I had already met a great book.
A reader read my blog and wrote this. I am really feeling thankful for this!
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