BGM: Fishmans "すばらしくてNICE CHOICE"
Today I could read John Irving's "A Prayer For Owen Meany" a lot. This season, the end and beginning of the year, I always think about what books I should enjoy. This year I should read John Irving's great masterpieces. I also reflect on my life which arrived around 50 years by reading John Irving. Indeed, someone says that our generation is the "lost generation". I admit that our generation always has to live in terrible situations. But, according to John Irving, we might be able to enjoy our destiny.
I remember the moment which changed drastically my life. For example, I borrowed the book Haruki Murakami's "Pinball, 1973" and read it, and that was the moment I met Haruki. But, I can never forget that, when I was 40 years old, I attended a meeting about autism at the antique cafe. That was the fatal meeting. They are still my friends. Without that, I would live soaked in deep regret and think that my life was a mistake. I would live with guilty. Ah, that is life.
I believe this. Being born in this world, living life, and meeting people have great meaning. That meaning might be enigmatic now. But your life will tell me what that means. Someday the day will come. I might have to say this. You should live even if you can't understand why you should do so. You just live, then the things you have got will come back as some reward. I learned English literature, and the skill of English is still alive and actual. The days you have faced your problems, and the days you have worked a lot will come back as gifts. You can understand as you live your life. That might change your life as great entertainment.
Once, in my region, at the end and beginning of the year, a TV station broadcasted special programs "Anime daisuki!" and "Cinema daisuki!". They were the programs which were 2 hours of anime and cinema. If I could trust my memory, I met Mamoru Oshii and Wim Wenders for the first time through that program (but this memory is suspicious). In this season, I might have to enjoy the anime and movies I don't enjoy usually. My life goes to the end step by step, so I should watch the one which cleanses my soul and reminds me of the truth of our life. A masterpiece... like Emil Kusturica?