人生は上々だ

Life is good.

2022/09/01 English

BGM: Joe Hisaishi "Kids Return"

Today, at my work, I was scolded by a co-worker. I was very busy and also did not fail (I guess) so I say something to her loudly. It made me think about some ideas like this. Recently a user said very cruel things. They made me confused and hurt, therefore I couldn't feel fine. Where do these 'differences' come from? It is really an interesting thing. It can be thought of like this. The co-worker is a 'well-known' person to me (even if I'm not a friend of hers). So I know her well, therefore, I can trust her. That might be one of the reasons.

Or the words on the net come as the 'direct' words themselves (Indeed, this is a tautology). The words 'fool' or 'idiot' come to here directly without any kindness. Yes, that should have a great impact and straightness. The words in real can tell us the face of the person. Also, I can say back to the person. On the net, you can run away from the person without reflecting how what the person says to you. That also makes a difference... I wrote about this without any 'clear' thoughts, but these things might tell me that the relationship in the real and the one on the net might be 'different'. I can say something poisonous to others freely, but I can't do such an act in real.

On the net, I shouldn't be formal as the real (like I should say something formally and treat others' minds with care). Therefore I might show 'natural' or 'naked' myself. That might be a reason for hurting too. Anyway, I am, as I always write, a slack person so I can't get used to the exchange of profanity basically. Or I can think that I could get no money even if I got used to that cruelty. I think I should stay away from that. The wise man keeps away from danger...

The communications with our faces, and the ones without faces. That kind of difference might also be important. This might sound like Levinas's ethics. Communication with words only, not showing faces, might cause difficulty in delivering our emotions to others. Therefore we would say cruel words and be hurt by them. Anyway, that event told me that I am not good at communication on the net. Yes, caring about the violence of communication on the net might produce something useful for me.