BGM: TM NETWORK "Get Wild"
Today I worked early. Before my work, I thought of the books I should read this summer. What books do I have to read this season... Life is not infinite, and I can read limited books. Then, what books are suitable for me to enjoy this life... I had written that I have never read Dickens, and still, now I never read him. Or reading Salinger's "Nine Stories" again. I have never read John Banville so I want to read him. Ah, I have found many writers one by one. I also have been interested in Alistair Macleod, so I have almost infinite books I want to read.
Ah, once I couldn't suit this myself to the world and had tried to escape from that by reading books. A teacher said to me that "You are running away by reading". Now, still I believe that books are good friends for me. But I think that I have tried to do some commitment (as Haruki Murakami has done) and throw this myself into the world through my work and private time. Such as the job coach, and also as stopping alcohol, etc. And I believe that through these processes I have grown up well, even if this might sound like I am proud of myself too much.
Maybe because I have grown up, or changed well, so recently I have never found someone's terrible comments and got anger as "Unbelievable!", and done foolish argument. I started having a disagreement about treating Twitter's timeline as our nation's opinion. Indeed, this kind of usage of social media might work differently depending on who the user is, but for me, Facebook's calm communication is suitable for this (of course, although Facebook might have very troublesome users).
The Japanese society doesn't allow any failure, or rarely gives the chance for recovery. We sometimes say so. It means that it is difficult to get recovered if people make a failure in education or other careers like me. Of course, some people might get recovered from it and can make successes, but all the things I want to say are that we might have the atmosphere of not allowing someone's mismatch speaking. If we made a mistake in communication, we should have a shameful emotion almost forever. I think there should be the stance of saying strange or dangerous things with playing a fool like Osamu Dazai, even if I am so nervous that I can't play like that.
