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The First Letter

2022/01/10

Dear Marco Stanley Fogg

Hello. How are you doing? How the corona disaster in New York is going on? In Japan, we are worrying about the sixth wave. The meetings I will attend should be the online ones on ZOOM. Marco, this year I will be 46 years old. When I was 20 years old, I read an adventure "Moon Palace" by Paul Auster which you appear as the main character. 26 years passed... what a long way. At that time, I couldn't forecast the era as now would come. Even a lot of ideologues discussed the future of the internet age...

Marco, how old are you now? All I can do to see how you are and what you are doing is just to read the novel "Moon Palace". It was a pity but I don't have any good ability of memory so I can't remember "Moon Palace" well. But it was a very sad, and beautiful story for me. I might have to read "Moon Palace" again to see you again. Reading it again, I can meet you again in that novel. I even might find myself again. The person who had read that novel with a certain passion.

In "Moon Palace", you should be 20 years old. 20... yes, I lived that age. Today was a "coming of age day" in Japan. People praise youth. 20 must be the most beautiful day... they say so. (Paul Nizan was the person who said so? I have never read his works). But it was a terrible era for me when I was 20. There were too many possibilities so I couldn't see what I should choose. I even couldn't see what I would be able to do. So I just felt the pressure.

At my 20, I went to Waseda University. In Japan, almost everyone knows what Waseda is. It must be a famous university as Colombia University you went to. But even I went to such a big university, I felt terrible at that time. Marco, that's youth? I can say this clearly. Now is the happier period for me than my youth. Of course, I lost the possibilities. I can't become what I want. But I can live seriously with a certain responsibility.

From now, I will write about my story, my truth. See you.